As of the time of writing, news outlets have been discussing unofficial forensic scientists' findings in the circumstances of Kurt's death... thirty-two years later, five years longer than Kurt was actually conscious in this world. They've concluded that it was homicide from the work of a specialist in gun suicide cases.

Did this really require the work of a specialist? This seemed obvious to all of us who were aware of who he was, who were aware of his personal situation, and had basic deduction skills.

My History with Kurt and Nirvana

Kurt Cobain was a big inspiration to me growing up. Our vague resemblance and similar attitude means he is the person I most frequently get compared to when being described. I came to find Nirvana when I was eleven years old, from my cousin's friend who taught me how to play bass guitar. He generously gave me his Nevermind and Live at Reading CDs which I listened to on my PS3 (I didn't have a CD player at the time), and it immediately opened a whole new world in my mind. I wasn't that much into music at that age even though I had been surrounded by it my entire life, with my dad constantly playing it through his hi-fi system starting whenever I got back from school and still playing after I went to bed - but this changed everything.

Nirvana's pure-cut teenage angst resonated with me at just the right time (funny in retrospect that mid-twenties guys were the epitome of being a teen musically and aesthetically, but moving on) - I was listening to Nevermind on repeat while playing Skate 3 and making my character into what I wanted to look like when I was older, which also somewhat resembled Kurt, and funnily enough I did end up turning out like that despite my various aesthetic/interest changes across the years.

For me this was escapism from my real self and experiencing the self I wanted to be. It sounds silly when I easily could've been that, but my school experiences formed me into a mindset where sticking out too much meant there was something wrong with you, and trying at anything was nerd shit that would get you bullied. It took a lot of positive experiences to finally unwind this tight knot I'd wound around myself, suppressing myself inwards, but here we are!

It didn't take long for me to get bored of Nevermind after playing it so much. So whenever I'd go into town I'd always be shopping at HMV digging for more Nirvana CDs with whatever pocket money I'd saved, and I just bought anything with reckless abandon. I bought the Sliver - Best of Box compilation first, then In Utero, Incesticide (which I remember being confused about its poor treatment, yes it may be a compilation album but its still a great collection with merit as its own thing?), then Bleach, the self-titled compilation, and finally stopping with the MTV unplugged CD. The order may seem random, and it was, I didn't really understand the difference between proper albums and compilations at that age, I just bought whatever they had. With all this new music, I spent a couple hours every day learning all their songs fully on bass. Nirvana's note simplicity meant they weren't too hard to learn, it was quick and rewarding.

TL;DR - It's safe to say I liked Nirvana, and have some decent knowledge about them.

What I thought of Kurt's death

My other cousin was the epitome of grunge, a big fan of Kurt's all his life, and also a conspiracy theorist. When I was around twelve or thirteen he told me that he believed that Courtney killed Kurt and there was no way that he killed himself. This was the first time I ever really questioned how Kurt died or looked into it at all, so I watched documentaries on it, and tried to come to my own conclusion.

The documentaries focused on Kurt's state at the time of death - riddled with heroin and overwhelmed - but considering his final interview being hopeful, with him talking about a new album, and having a young daughter to care for that he loved... how would it be such a cut and dry situation?

The basic stuff paints the real picture. Kurt was a 5'8" guy, he was born average in build but became shorter due to his unfortunate issues with scoliosis, and he supposedly shot himself through the mouth with a Remington Model 11 - a 47 inch shotgun by standard, but his model had a muzzle break attached! This made the gun roughly (from my estimation) about 51 inches long, which is 4'3" long. How would he be able to reach the trigger on such a long gun facing towards him? The forensics also concluded that he had 10x the lethal dose of heroin in his system at his time of death, way more than any heroin addict would ever do. His equipment for his needles and heroin was also stored away neatly, and there was no blood on his hands despite the fact he would've held the barrel to his mouth as his head was imploded by the shot.

You don't need to be a forensic specialist to put together that this suicide doesn't make any sense.

The reason he was killed and who did it, is where I'll leave you to come to your own conclusion, but there's no doubt that it was homicide - so I ask, why are we hearing about this again now?